Unapologetically Weird With Tobare!

Something has changed within me.  A yearning for the first time for more.  Is it greed? is it ambition?  For a life I know is out there.  I dream of the days when my days will be enough.  When I'd laugh without any hindrances and perhaps even love.  Yet, a resistance in my soul holds me hostage from these things within my grasp.  I wrestle every day for my happiness.  If you pass by me you might feel a warmth you never felt before.  I had resigned myself to my fate, that I could only do so much as she let me.  Perhaps I now believe the words, I have heard all my life.  It has occurred to me, how much I have denied myself.  Is it the devil whispering "master be kind to yourself?"  Should I take his hand and perch on his wings?  Or is it just my time? A time that I glued its hands together waiting for another's time to strike. The gates I once thought were shut have been opened wide ajar.  I am grasping the suspenders of my jumpsuit and leaping forward. Perhaps, it has