Discovering Change: Finding Freedom and Self-Acceptance
Something has changed within me. A yearning for the first time for more. Is it greed? is it ambition? For a life I know is out there. I dream of the days when my days will be enough. When I'd laugh without any hindrances and perhaps even love. Yet, a resistance in my soul holds me hostage from these things within my grasp. I wrestle every day for my happiness. If you pass by me you might feel a warmth you never felt before. I had resigned myself to my fate, that I could only do so much as she let me. Perhaps I now believe the words, I have heard all my life. It has occurred to me, how much I have denied myself. Is it the devil whispering "master be kind to yourself?" Should I take his hand and perch on his wings? Or is it just my time? A time that I glued its hands together waiting for another's time to strike. The gates I once thought were shut have been opened wide ajar. I am grasping the suspenders of my jumpsuit and leaping forward. Perhaps, it has